Don’t Give Up!

Fear can be paralyzing; it can take over your thoughts, your whole being. Don’t let it! God did a wondrous thing when he created us. He gave us hands, a heart, and a beautiful mind.

I believe we are all on this earth for a purpose. When I died on the operating table in that hospital, someone, through the hands of God, revived me. I was meant to be heard, to encourage others, “Don’t give up. Love yourself.”

We all have warts we hide with a bluff, a comic stance, a smirk, or a sneer. Which is yours? We all want to belong, to fit in. What are you doing today to embrace those standing on the fringe of life?

Life is too fragile a thing. It can end so quickly. My mother taught me to wake up the next day…never give up. Why? Because you do not have a crystal ball, each day can be a better day.

Thrown in darkness at the prime of life, I could have shriveled up and recoiled from living. I made a choice. You can too. It may be painful, but it is temporary. Start with seeing your best self before you and become that all the time.

That is my dream. To be my best and to do it in small groups of young people and talk about the positive stance we all need to take. I was at a high school yesterday and my heart hurt for those hurting. I pray for their strength and faith.

I want to be friends with you. Write to me.

 

Dear Reader

As I move to the second stage of writing a book, I think of two things. One, putting words on paper is more difficult than saying words. Two, you can deny what you say—you can’t take back what you write.

I think, "How is it that you got here, Fiona? Will others judge you by your words? Are the precious thoughts you penned going to have a life of their own?”

Be gentle, my friends, as you read my memoir.  This newbie writer is fragile.

Yet I hear hints that I must write again.

 

 

The Time Has Come

I am drinking cold coffee and humming church songs from my Methodist days as a child. God is good despite the rumble of evil spouting from the television in the background. I didn’t turn it on; I watch little television.

Touching children of ages five to thirteen I wrote on the chalkboard (now it is a smart board):  Today Is the First Day of the Rest of Your Life. Like it was a title of a book. It is—the book of your life. Today I will read my memoir (manuscript) for the last time. It is difficult to let go. My little voice is pleading, "No hurry. Just take one more look."

Wow! What a trip! To put your vulnerable self out there for all to see. It is like opening your teenage diary and saying "Come one, come all. Partake of my innermost thoughts, but please don’t judge me."

I will take another sip of cold coffee and dive in.   It’s time.

Reflections: Decatur Book Festival
 
For all you writers out there, I have learned a lot. Spending two days networking with other authors was an eye-opener. They say, “Hindsight is 20/20.” I learned the hard way that I should have been at the Decatur Book Festival last year.
 
My illustrator is in Canada—I wished she could have heard the “Oohs” and “Ahs” on her illustrations. Bettina the Bold: A Blind Butterfly Discovers How to Make Friends is our first book together. Jerrilyn, I soaked up the camaraderie and accolades for us both. How satisfying to hear people say children need a book like this.
 
When I stepped onto the Emerging Writers stage to speak, I realized that September 4th was the 24th anniversary of waking up blind. Even though this was a sad anniversary, it was a triumph which brought me great joy. Helen, my granddaughter, flitted around dressed as Bettina the Bold butterfly and Ethan led me around to meet the folks.  
 
My long-time storytelling friend B.J. Abraham (who helped me record the audio version of the book) and I have made plans to travel to schools to show children how my computer talks and I write. We will share Bettina the Bold to many. Stay tuned!

Dare To Be The Real You… Even When You Think You Can’t!

One particular third grader, Billy, caught the tennis ball that I threw into the audience. The teachers collectively held their breath.

Billy, a visually impaired student, had a tendency to act out inappropriately. It was too late for them to tell me this. Remarkably, Billy and I connected on a different level. What beautiful communication!

We demonstrated the use of Braille and sighted guide technique together. I know that neither Billy nor I will forget that moment. What others view as impossible feats, I just think of as another hurdle to jump. Continue reading

Turning Tragedy Into Triumph… Encounters Of A Blind Woman

Have you ever noticed how often you use the word “see,” “look,” and “watch?” No, probably not unless you are blind and trying to figure out this visual planet. I cannot tell you how many times people have said those words around me, then stopped and apologized because they felt foolish. I also feel awkward trying to put people at ease but I am beginning to get used to it. I even use those same words myself. I just  see differently.

I find it amusing when someone asks, “Did you see that television show the other night?” or “Watch out for that fire hydrant!”  I love it when my friends say, “You look nice today.” “So do you!” I always reply. They catch on and laugh. For someone who doesn’t know me that reply would stop them dead in their tracks.

According to the rehabilitation center where I attended for two months, I am totally blind. Yep, I don’t see a thing. Less than one half of one percent of the population of the United States is like me. In my world of darkness the learning curve never ends. It doesn’t matter if I have been blind four years or 34 years. My friend, Waymon, who has been visually impaired since he was ten, doesn’t agree with my assessment of being blind. He never admits that he has anything new to learn. That must be his maleness showing.

It doesn’t matter to me what anyone says. Darkness is scary and unpredictable. Continue reading

Can You Imagine Not Being Able To Talk For Months?
I Couldn’t—I’m A Storyteller!

A number of years ago, I lost my voice and the doctor ordered me to rest my vocal cords for two and a half months. I am not the kind of person who can easily be quiet and still. In the twelve years since I had become disabled, I had continued to speak at storytelling festivals and in schools. I had even started a motivational speaking business.  Now I was faced with the prospect of sitting at home and trying to occupy my mind—without even the benefit of sight.

I am all about adventure, discovery, and loving people.  How was I going to sit quietly and let my life just ebb away? It was so hard at first. But, one day, in absolute frustration, I turned to my computer and started writing all the stories which I had been telling. The more I wrote, the more I got turned on to writing. Writing became my catharsis!

The funny and poignant tales stacked up in my mind. Echoes of remarks I had heard over and over resurfaced, “Fiona, when are you going to write a book?”  So I wrote.  The people, events, and circumstances I wrote about revealed to me how I had found courage, inspiration, and vision.   Continue reading

"You can't depend on your vision when your imagination is out of focus." --Mark Twain

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Have You Heard Fiona Here?

  • American Library Association
  • American Council of the Blind
  • National Council of the Teachers of English
  • National Conference on Storytelling
  • Georgia Dept of Juvenile Justice
  • Georgia Dept of Family & Children's Services
  • Sawnee Electric Membership Cooperative
  • Georgia Vocational Rehabilitation
  • Chic-Fil-A
  • Atlanta's Paralympics
  • Helen Keller Foundation
  • Tommy Nobis Center
  • N. Carolina Brain Injury Assn.

“Fiona captivates her audiences by knocking their blinders off” Jim Cashin, Director of Georgia Radio Reading Service (GARRS)